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theairlock2018-03-18 03:27 pm
airlockedmods) wrote in theairlock2018-03-18 03:27 pm
Week 7
[Well that weekend sucked. The Champions are down a dad and a bean and shrinking their numbers smaller and smaller, less and less.
There's no sign of life in the spaceport aside from PAL's omnipresent voice and SIS, the helpful asSIStant who has some control over certain heres and theres in the spaceport. She (and PAL) are available at all times and can appear anywhere if called. There is, however, a new floor to explore. Just hop in the elevator and pchoo.]
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There's no sign of life in the spaceport aside from PAL's omnipresent voice and SIS, the helpful asSIStant who has some control over certain heres and theres in the spaceport. She (and PAL) are available at all times and can appear anywhere if called. There is, however, a new floor to explore. Just hop in the elevator and pchoo.]
(( Don't forget to check in, check your memory regains! and put in for item regains))
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Honestly... I've thought about giving up a lot of times. I even tried.
The only reason I'm still going... is because... every time I tried, so many people forced their way back into my life. I still have... friends and family here. In the end I... couldn't abandon them. And now... now I have both Byakuya's and Ardyn's expectations to carry.
So... I'm not surprised. It's... a lot to live with. I wouldn't blame anyone for feeling that way. But... even so... if it got to that point... It would be my turn to be the one bothering everyone and doing... whatever I could to keep them alive.
cw: suicide mention
[She sits on the floor, pulling her knees to her chest.]
It was a Friday. We thought there would be another body. Instead... Heart came to get me. Choromatsu......... he slit his wrists. I can't remember who helped me, but with my abilities, medical knowledge, and whatever it was that person did-[It's frustrating not to remember that is was a certain witch who helped.]-we managed to save his life.
[A hand moves up into her hair to tug hard.]
He made that choice again, but this time... this time I couldn't save him. I had no right to. And it's killing me. Those scars on his wrists were proof I saved him... I couldn't save him, I couldn't save Rhys or Angel, I couldn't save Clarith... I can't save anyone. They all die on me in the end.
cw: suicide mention
....the reality is... what happened back then-- what you did was incredible. And I'm glad you did it. If... you didn't... I never would have met Choromatsu-kun. The reality is... saving people like that... isn't realistic in this situation.
In Hope's Peak... there was one as well. A suicide. Ogami Sakura. She was... as terrifying looking a person as you could imagine. She was the Ultimate Martial Artist and... probably the strongest person in the world. We all judged her harshly and without hesitation.
She... killed herself. But because of the way we treated her, one of my classmates... tried to cover up her suicide as a murder because she felt... we all deserved to die for what we'd done. And... she was probably right.
Ogami Sakura was... a good person. She... made mistakes... but she tried to atone for them. But all we could do was hate. Trying to make peace with those of us who distrusted her-- she was met with nothing but fear and distrust and violence. So much that she... felt that committing suicide was the only way. Not... because she hated us... but... because she wanted to stand by us.
She sacrificed herself to stop the killing... even though we never forgave her. Even though I attacked her. Even so she was still willing to make that choice to do what she believed in. To protect us and stop that horrible game. She died with a damn smile on her face... confident that we'd find her note and that she could save us.
...but the note she left was tampered with and we all fought with each other a long time before we realized... the truth.
Choromatsu-kun... what he did was wrong. But... it was his choice. He faced his mistakes the way he wanted to. That's why... this time... I wanted to forgive him. And that's why... I want to keep my promise. I want to save him. I'm not going to give up on the promises I've made to the loved ones I've lost. And... I'm going to protect as many people as I can, even if I can't save them all right now. In the end, I... want to defy those expectations and... save everyone. I just... need to live a little longer... I know a way has to exist.
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.... I don't think I could ever hate him. Yes, what he did to Ardyn....... but if my sister was that close with me? And she was in that situation? I might have done the same.
[Deep breaths. Calm down.]
I hope we can save them. Yes, I might end up slapping him for doing what he did to food, but... I'll be happy to have him back if we can really do it. Him and Ardyn. I want my brother and my dad back.