theairlock | Week 7

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!round 5,
!week 7

Week 7

[Well that weekend sucked. The Champions are down a dad and a bean and shrinking their numbers smaller and smaller, less and less.

There's no sign of life in the spaceport aside from PAL's omnipresent voice and SIS, the helpful asSIStant who has some control over certain heres and theres in the spaceport. She (and PAL) are available at all times and can appear anywhere if called. There is, however, a new floor to explore. Just hop in the elevator and pchoo.]

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[There's a flicker of anger across his face, in the deepening frown and furrow in his brow.] Sure. If that's what you wanna believe.

You don't believe that they are taken?

[If Church's anger bothers him, he doesn't show it]

Who knows where the fuck they are. If anywhere.

That is what I mean- without knowing it's hard to... process it all.

Dead or in another level of VR or somewhere that's not here.

[He nods- he doesn't have an argument.]

I'm sorry, saying all will be fine because they are just elsewhere is just as hallow as saying 'it's fine, because you will see them again in the after'.

[Something Xander knows for a fact is true now, but which doesn't ease the pain in his belly]

[He looks very close to smacking Xander across the face with the book. But he refrains. That wouldn't be fair.

But then again, none of this is fair. He takes a long, deep breath.]

So you think you'll see your girlfriend or whoever again?

I think so, yes.

[Even if Church didn't hit him, he can sense the tension, and steps aside]

Forgive my presumption. I... am not good at comforting.

Oh, is that what the fuck you thought you were doing. Really. You thought any of that was comforting. Is that what you think I want right now? Empty fucking platitudes and 'oh you'll see him again', fucking really?

[Xander pinches his nose in frustration]

Is that what you took from that?

I don't know, I don't think even you knew what the fuck you were saying.

I was, godsdamn it, I was TRYING to say I understand! That this place doesn't even allow us the chance to grieve properly, what with offering us the others like a carrot on a string!

...fuck, I don't want to fight with you Church.

What the fuck is proper grieving. Like what the fuck is that even supposed to be?

...gods, I'll tell you when I figure it out.

Well apparently nothing I do is fucking appropriate, so I guess we're both fucked in that department.

Church...

[He winces, lips pursed]

Do what you need to do. Our opinions on it don't matter in the long run. I... just worry we are close to losing you and Junpei too.

Yeah. You are.

...what do you mean?

[Church what are you planning??]

I mean you're fucking right, dipshit! You heard Junpei at the trial! You think he's gonna get better? You think he's gonna get any better around me?

These things take time Church, of course he's in an awful state! But how he's handling this isn't on you.

It is at least a little.

Well, because you are his family. You are both suffering. But... feeding off each other's pain will only lead to you both gorged to the point of being immobile.

[He wants to say 'Ardyn wouldn't want that', but who is he to say one way or the other what that man would want?]

You think we shouldn't spend time together? [y'know before they go sprinting off into a vr together]

I think you should be aware of what's happening. Do not become so deep in your loss that you fall in love with it. That the very idea of anything else feels like a betrayal, or worse- pointless. Junpei has been in a dark place for a long time now, if you can't help him, at least don't dig him deeper or let him drag you in with him.

He's my best friend--he's my brother. I wanna help but...I can't even help myself.

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