Week 4

[airlockedmods]

[After everything that this case was, you probably don't want to deal with anything else. But you wake up on Sunday, just like before, with some new memories, and some new stores to check out.

Let's see what this week brings.]

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(( Don't forget to check in, and check your memory regains! You can also stop by the gacha machine and Xander's office hours. ))

Comments

[motherfucking_ghost]

More than a hunch.

...So that's a thing. That'll probably--that probably came out? At some point?

...Do you think any of us died?

[burninglight]

It must have. If I were to remember the person I became, then...the healer you thought I was would have disappeared entirely. I might even have killed someone, but I begin to suspect that's not the case. So far, those we remember losing aren't here--so it logically follows that there's a chance we're the ones who managed to survive somehow.

[motherfucking_ghost]

But there's supposed to be an Ultimate Champion. You can't have twenty ultimate champions.

[burninglight]

You're exactly right. Which leads me to think something may have gone less than according to plan.

[motherfucking_ghost]

That's really...ominous. Really, really ominous. If we lived, and something went wrong, and now we're here again, that's...

Does this keep going? Over and over until there's only one?

[burninglight]

...I want to presume that isn't the case, but I fear you may be on to something.

[motherfucking_ghost]

[Drink! Cough!] Not okay with that, not okay with this, not okay with anything about that. Cool. Awesome. This is fine. This is super duper.

[burninglight]

But if something went wrong--if some of us managed to stop a situation like this before it came down to an ending, for example--that means it can be done. Whoever Xander answers to, they must be fallible. Prone to mistakes, mistakes that can be taken advantage of.

[motherfucking_ghost]

Unless it wasn't because of us that something went wrong.

And we won't know until we remember.

[burninglight]

Right. We're in a situation we can't plan or account for until we remember further than we have, so it's just one more rigged situation.

[motherfucking_ghost]

...If the pattern holds. Someone else needs to die to remember more.

[burninglight]

...yeah. That's likely to be exactly the case.

[motherfucking_ghost]

Then maybe we'll just have to live with incomplete memories!

[burninglight]

And if we do, if things should unfold that some measure of our lives are truly unrecoverable, we'll find a way to deal with what we have and forge new ones if we must.

...I don't like the idea of never knowing. But I'll accept it if it means no one else here dies.

[motherfucking_ghost]

...I...

I don't...know. That's--last time, last time I could live with it cuz--cuz I didn't know, but if I know, if I know there's so much I forgot and I'm--

[He's looking a little pale, and he's shaking when he tries to bring the fire liquor back up to take another drink.]

[burninglight]

Church--look at me. Focus on my voice, and try to concentrate.

[He reached over to put a hand on Church's wrist to lower the glass.]

I don't...want to be missing such a length of time. At all. How I became human, what any of us were or are to each other, it's just another thing driving me insane.

I'm as afraid as you are. So we--all of us--have to hold each other together as best we can until we can get a grip on this whole mess and begin to untangle it.

[motherfucking_ghost]

[He stares at the hand on his wrist for a few long moments before finally lifting his eyes to Ardyn's face. Something is familiar about this. Somehow.]

...I just. I. Isn't it bad enough we forgot twice? We forgot our own histories, and now there's this? It's a little...much.

If we could...find a way to...get them back without the killing...

[burninglight]

If there's any way to recall what we've lost without seeing anyone else killed, then we're going to find it. I don't wish anyone else to suffer like that, and I don't want to simply spend however long I might live not knowing so much.

We're all miserable disasters, every last one of us. But we're...we're disasters together. Right?

[motherfucking_ghost]

...I asked Xander. I--asked him to ask his bosses. To give it back. He didn't argue, just...said that it wasn't his decision and that I shouldn't expect anything. But he at least talked to them. Or said something. Or sent a message. I don't know that it'll...do anything but...

[burninglight]

You-...asked for your memories? But-...there's no way he'll just make things that easy.

[motherfucking_ghost]

He doesn't have any control of it. It's his bosses. But he passed on the message. Far as I know. I don't expect anything. I thought I'd be in for an argument, but...

A-anyway. I just...it's complicated.

[burninglight]

...it's alright. You don't have to tell me everything--I can understand 'complicated'. Just...don't do anything careless, please.

[motherfucking_ghost]

I lost my memory before. I can't get it back. So...this is...really freaking me out. A lot.

[burninglight]

[Ardyn drew his hand back only slightly, in favor of holding it out in a silent offer that felt...right. As if it were a familiar and practiced gesture he'd long since forgotten the reasoning behind.]

We're going to take back what we've forgotten. I don't know how, but I refuse to let whatever's transpired be lost forever. They-...our friends both living and dead deserve to be remembered, and I'll not assume such time to be lost to us.

[motherfucking_ghost]

I...

[He doesn't immediately take the offered hand. It might even seem that he won't, but, slowly, eventually, he does.]

This is all fucked up, man, it's fucked. We might be stuck in this forever. Just losing ourselves until we're all dead. How's that a way to live?