It floats away, a small wish with tears and a little regret

[desperateprayer]

[ After the entire trial, Clarith gets to work. If Rii-san won't make the memorials, she will, and if Rii-san does, she'll supervise. And then, she'll slip a letter under each door. ]

Please join me in the gardens for a funeral and then a wake in the first floor rest area.

- Sister Clarith

[ When people arrive, Clarith is waiting with her Levin Bible in hand. Afterward, they can all file into the rest area, where hopefully someone has made food! She's sure someone would have, but she wanted to just... Get the funeral done. ]

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[serrata]

Alright. Let's get started, then.

[ and get started they do. Yuuri gives her a minute before she speaks up again: ]

So... how are you...?

[everylittlesecret]

[That was an inevitable question. Nari carefully plants a few seeds.]

Doing as well as I can. Trying not to break down because I can't afford that right now.

[serrata]

... You don't...

[ She trails off, not really sure how she should word her concern. If Nari needs to keep herself together through this then Yuuri doesn't want to touch a sore nerve. But she also doesn't want the other girl feeling like she has to bottle everything up. She knows how much that hurts. ]

This was hard for all of us, but... the way he came after you in the trial like that...

[ Another pause as she watches Nari's quick, careful hands work through the dirt rather than her face. ]

It's... it's okay to not be okay for a little bit.

[everylittlesecret]

... Jack read me like a book, is all. He was a part of Rhys after all. I'm over it.

[No she's not, but Church will be the one to get that violent temper thrown at him.]

I keep being told that. But... it's not easy to be not okay.

[serrata]

It's the hardest thing in the world. I know.

[ She cracks Nari a barely-there smile. ]

It's taken me this long to even feel comfortable enough to admit when I'm not.

[everylittlesecret]

I... I don't want people to worry about me. It's embarrassing. I went my whole life with no one caring, and here? Everyone cares. It's...... admitting I'm not okay makes me feel like a failure.

[serrata]

... I won't...

[ A pause. When she starts speaking again it's slow and a little halting like she's taking great care to think over every word before she says it. ]

If you don't want to talk about it, I'm not going to make you. But I want you to know -- if you need to be the person who isn't okay... that's fine. It doesn't mean you've failed and no one's going to hold it against you.

We want to help, Nari.

[everylittlesecret]

[She nods but doesn't speak for quite some time.]

... I just don't want to scare anyone with what's going on in my head.

[serrata]

I lived in a school full of zombies for almost a year, Nari. I'm very hard to scare.

[ ... that was probably her trying to lighten the mood, just a touch. ]

[everylittlesecret]

Yes, but have you ever had to listen to someone ramble that has diagnosed mental issues and should probably be on medication?

[serrata]

[ there's a very long pause. then: ]

... Well, actually...

[ YES... ? ]

[everylittlesecret]

..... diagnosed by a professional or diagnosed by you because there was no professional?

[serrata]

... a little from column A, mostly from column B.

[ Megu-nee was a professional teacher?? does that count??? ]

[everylittlesecret]

I see... Well, mine is done professionally, and I should be on meds.... But I don't want to lose myself.