It floats away, a small wish with tears and a little regret

[desperateprayer]

[ After the entire trial, Clarith gets to work. If Rii-san won't make the memorials, she will, and if Rii-san does, she'll supervise. And then, she'll slip a letter under each door. ]

Please join me in the gardens for a funeral and then a wake in the first floor rest area.

- Sister Clarith

[ When people arrive, Clarith is waiting with her Levin Bible in hand. Afterward, they can all file into the rest area, where hopefully someone has made food! She's sure someone would have, but she wanted to just... Get the funeral done. ]

Comments

[myocordial]

...Hm. Well, I have a habit of acting without thinking, too.

[What was it that Brain said once, months ago? "You acted rashly, recklessly, and brutally..." Well. When he did act, that was a good description.]

I shouldn't... have lost control like that. [If Ardyn hadn't stopped him...] But some of the things he was saying...

[goteachother]

Were meant to get under your skin.

Everything he said was... and if you think you "act without thinking" I can't imagine what you think of the rest of us.

[myocordial]

It was effective.

[Too effective.]

...Very few of us really handled that well. Not that I think there really was a good way of handling it. There wasn't exactly a good option left for us.

[goteachother]

I don't think there's anyway that could have gone over well. It-

Well it would've been easier on them if they'd just gone to sleep. I don't know that even that would have been easy, though.

[myocordial]

...Right.

[Easy doesn't describe any of this.]

I wish... they wouldn't have even done this in the first place.

[goteachother]

I'm sorry...

[She draws her knees up to her chest, leans away from him a little. It's not fair that she is taking comfort from others when-]

She came to me. She told me she was scared.

I never thought she'd- I'm so sorry

[myocordial]

...What did she say?

[goteachother]

Just that she was scared. Worried 'bout me, too. We're all so terrified I didn't.

[A sniffle and she shakes her head.]

I didn't think she meant that she'd... even think about...

[myocordial]

...We've all been so focused on fighting. I don't think we thought about anyone choosing... not to.

[Simply giving up. Or fighting in a different way, if you wanted to look at it that way. He'd rather not look at it any way, all it does is make him feel sick.]

I asked her... what she wanted to do upon getting out of here. She didn't have an answer she was happy with. ["I don't want to be forced to go back home."] ...I thought we would simply figure that out later.

[goteachother]

[She could never look at it as fighting, not like that. It was surrendering to the situation they were all trapped in.]

We should have... I should've... pushed more for her to stay last night. I thought... she just wanted to be with Rhys.

We're all from such different worlds I think... some of it... would be hard to even think of. If all you've known is... the kind of pain she did, how do you dream about the future?