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theairlock2017-05-21 12:50 pm
airlockedmods) wrote in theairlock2017-05-21 12:50 pm
Week 2
[Other than the reappearance of the Overseer, there's no real change in the routine. PAL still makes the morning and night time announcements through the PIP on each Champion's arm, and still the Champion unitards are freshly laundered and re-hung each morning in their closets.
No other floors unlock, but Cece and Kip will still be appearing randomly to chit-chat.
All you know is... something has to change soon.]
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[ooc: Don't forget to to turn in your AC for week 1 and submit your threads for the Benefactors!]
No other floors unlock, but Cece and Kip will still be appearing randomly to chit-chat.
All you know is... something has to change soon.]
[ooc: Don't forget to to turn in your AC for week 1 and submit your threads for the Benefactors!]
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[She lifts one of the stuffed animals paws and waves at Clarith with it.]
It's not healthy to keep things like that in. Better it come out now than be used against you later.
CW: Abuse, a lot of it. Also racism. Some minor talk of sexual coercion.
[ She's quiet for a long moment. ]
...Ever since I can remember... I've been treated with scorn and hatred. I didn't understand at first, why people would threaten to crucify and burn me alive, or why they would threaten to poison me, or why I'd be beaten. When I grew older, I realized... They hated me because of my white hair... Because I'm a Netsuma, unlike them. E-Even my real mother didn't want me. I can... Only imagine she was left by my father. Or maybe... He was like the chief, and she... W-Worked for someone at night to make ends meet and I'm the result. I don't remember her. I only... Know my current mother. She took me in. But now she's suffering for it...
[ ...It's weird, talking to someone about this. About all of the things that have happened. ]
...I'm... Not as nice as I seem, and I'm a coward, too. I... Secretly hate everyone. For not suffering like me. For living a better life, or for treating me horribly. B-But I... Have to deserve it, or...
[ ...Or what has she been suffering for? ]
...I can never make enough to pay the land fees. The chief... Regularly threatens to throw me out. Sometimes I cook for him during the day instead of picking trauben... The other villagers... Regularly push me around or hit me. All I do is apologize... I don't... Know what to do anymore, Miss Nari. Only Mikaela has... Ever been nice to me. ...I'm afraid she'll hate me when she finds out what I'm really like and learns more about the world...
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She lets Clarith keep telling her story. If her stuffed friend was real, she's sure she would have crushed it to death.]
.... You don't have to worry about those things here. No one here would ever hurt you for how you look or what has happened to you. I know it won't be easy, believe me, until today I didn't know I had a single friend in the world or universe... but everyone here wants you safe. Everything that's happened is just a piece of you that you can either hold on to and let control you, or let it become part of your past. Okay?
CW: Brief mentions of suicidal ideation
[ She curls up tighter. She's definitely crying again, shaking as she speaks. It's... Not often she gets to talk about this. ]
...Mikaela... Defended me. She said... My hair is beautiful... I'm... Not sure I believe her, but... She wasn't saying that just to be nice, was she?
cw: suicide talk
[And that's her being honest.]
My dad, he's a doctor. It was impractical, but he was always hoping I'd follow in his shoes, so he'd have me come to the office with him when I was little. The stories I heard from people who wanted to kill themselves, those who tried... I've seen awful scars. Heard those scars. There's many different types. It made me think. What would I do in a situation like that? I can't... imagine it. I can think about the act, imagine the blade slicing into my wrist. But what I can't even begin to fathom is what sort of relief or pain would come from it... The point is that I think you're a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for. I don't think you'll do it. When your mother passes away, especially now that you're here around people who want to get to know you. [She hesitates.] But, if for some reason you do decide to do it, know that I won't hold it against you, or stop you. It's your choice. You're an adult.
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...Thank you, Nari. I don't... Have anyone to talk to like this. I think, for the first time in a long time... I feel lighter... I'm not sure how to describe it.
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[She gives Clarith a small smile before moving closer and patting her head.] Anytime you need to talk, you can come find me. I'm never very far.
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