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Misumaru Yurika ([personal profile] ratherdoweddings) wrote in [community profile] theairlock2018-03-03 06:26 pm

when you hear me calling out to you, saying, "i'll always believe in you"

[It occurs to Yurika that she has no idea what either of the men they'd lost just now had with regards to religious beliefs. She doesn't know who they wanted to leave their things to. She doesn't miss the detailed funeral requests, and at least neither wanted their ashes scattered over a lake on a planet that might not even exist here while the mall radio blasted "Stairway to Heaven," but having nothing...

It's actually kind of fitting. They don't have much to begin with.

Arianna strongly insisted on handling the food, so don't worry, your afterparty food today does not consist of disgusting burnt lumps and will not send you all back into the courtroom should somebody eat one. Candles are lit on another table and Yurika's standing at the front with a hand on her shoulder.]


In my last group... our last group, for some of us, the only cases we've remembered so far had culprits who were either cruel or just that determined to escape. Here, it seems different. We're all survivors, so it seems, and we're all friends who are doing our best -- even when the motives make it seem like we should give up. Even when people die anyway.

Maybe Togami-san was right that it'll just keep going from now, but he was also right that it can't keep going forever. I'm going to make sure to keep trying for all of you, and I know you will, too.
tokencanadian: (Head tilt)

[personal profile] tokencanadian 2018-03-04 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
You... really? But I thought you didn't have Aura.
burninglight: (then i'll carry on too)

[personal profile] burninglight 2018-03-04 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
No, it's...a similar feeling for a different reason. I feel...smaller, in a way. What I was before this was so much less constrained to a simple human frame; my body was only a construct, a false masquerade of a human shape made of Starscourge and animated by the shreds of will a betrayed healer left behind. Injuries repaired themselves in seconds, and if I was killed, my form would dissipate like smoke and reform only minutes later.

Now- [Ardyn looked to his hand, curling it into a loose fist.] I have to eat and drink, I'm able to sleep, I can be injured or killed--my blood's even red again, after so long.

Mortals are so...small, constrained to this one single body with too many thoughts and memories and sentiments to hold.
tokencanadian: (Doubtful)

[personal profile] tokencanadian 2018-03-04 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a whole lot to process in that statement, Ardyn. How about we dissemble it, bit by bit.

Starting with the, uh... not so obvious.
]

....You were connected to the Starscourge?
burninglight: (then i'll carry on too)

[personal profile] burninglight 2018-03-04 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
...I was the Starscourge. [Ardyn looked away, trying to hide that he was surprised Noctis or Fukawa hadn't told her.]
tokencanadian: (Surprised)

[personal profile] tokencanadian 2018-03-04 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
You... R-really?

[Too bad he's looking away, because he's not going to see Pyrrha working out the arithmetic floating in front of her eyes. She's worked past the first bit, and it seems like the rest of the revelations are coming to her.

she starts sluggishly, reaching out to place a hand on his arm, trying to get him to look back.
]

You're the combined form of a centuries old virus that plagued your world.... to be honest, I never would have guessed.
burninglight: (then i'll carry on too)

[personal profile] burninglight 2018-03-04 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
It's...hard to explain. I honestly assumed Noctis would tell you if Touko hadn't.

[Ardyn didn't so much flinch under the hand on his arm as he went slightly tense--but he also didn't pull away.]

When I was human--I was a healer, using divine magic to hold back the night as the only person who could cure the plague. But my power was...transferrence. I took everything onto myself, and eventually I was more scourge than human. Long story short, I lost my sanity and became the plague personified.
Edited 2018-03-04 05:13 (UTC)
tokencanadian: (Concerned)

[personal profile] tokencanadian 2018-03-05 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
...You tried to get rid of the plague yourself, only to become it.

[...] But, you were still a Human once.
burninglight: (then i'll carry on too)

[personal profile] burninglight 2018-03-05 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
Once, yes--I was hardly born a monster, after all. And I suppose I'm back to that mortality now.
tokencanadian: (Reassure)

[personal profile] tokencanadian 2018-03-06 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
It must be a little nice, doesn't it? Feeling like a Human again.
burninglight: (soaring above our fears)

[personal profile] burninglight 2018-03-06 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
It's a complicated situation. Sometimes it has its positives, but...it's terribly painful as well.
tokencanadian: (Concerned)

[personal profile] tokencanadian 2018-03-06 04:28 am (UTC)(link)
...That's an unfortunate effect of being Human. But, if we didn't have all these feelings, or be able to feel pain... I guess we wouldn't be able to appreciate the better parts of it.