Week 4

[airlockedmods]

[After everything that this case was, you probably don't want to deal with anything else. But you wake up on Sunday, just like before, with some new memories, and some new stores to check out.

Let's see what this week brings.]

Sunday | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday

(( Don't forget to check in, and check your memory regains! You can also stop by the gacha machine and Xander's office hours. ))

Comments

[kingshaming]

Don't think I'm so blind. I know that I am expendable. My life has always been. Odds are strong that all the abuse I have hefted upon you would be for nothing- and will be more names added to my list of payments when I am finally allowed to die.

But for the short time I have been gifted past what I was supposed to have, I can not accept even the whisper of hope being taken from me. It may be a lie, but it's all I have left. Even if they let me walk away now and live in peace, I would not choose it. I couldn't.... I couldn't bare it.

cw: suicidal ideation

[burninglight]

...

[Ardyn almost wanted to laugh, even if he couldn’t place which of a long list of things in Xander’s words struck him as funny. So instead he forced it back and stayed silent for long enough to carefully turn his words over and over like the ring he took from his pocket to fidget with idly.]

I’ve a very long list of names to answer for myself, but I expect you know that. I know what it’s like to be unable or unwilling to merely stop long enough to recognize a sunk cost fallacy.

You’ll not be able to bear it, should this end and you even claim all that you wish. Even the end you so desire won’t bring you peace, for deep in your heart you’ll know the kind and noble king you could have been will die with you. Or, perhaps, that he died long ago.

[kingshaming]

['A kind and noble king'. Xander looks... wistful. And lost]

I fear that chance is long gone. I had hope for it once, but it was not to be. I can't only hope my being gone will allow others a better chance to do so.

[burninglight]

[Ardyn tilted his head slightly, staring at Xander with an impassive look.]

...I think you would be stunned at the capacity of some people for forgiveness. Not me, of course, but some people.

[He shrugged like that simply wasn't his problem, turning to leave.]

Perhaps you should consider that, when next you tire of your handlers' methods and find the inexplicable urge to do the right thing.