week 2

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Week 2

[It's been about a week since the Champions woke up in their new consumerist hellscape of a temporary home and, despite a few odd goings on and the bomb incident with Church and Nari, things haven't been as bad as they could be. No one is even dead yet! But let's see how long that lasts.

Enjoy your week, Champions.]

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[cyan_maid]

[The touch is not shrugged off or brushed away - Touko's fine doing what she's doing. It's enough to keep Jane tethered to the moment, though it would be so easy to drift off.]

...But what if it's bad? What if I...

[What if it's something that would make everyone push her away? That made her just as bad as...]

[induality]

...y-you've heard what most of us have been hiding. We all h-have a lot of things we regret-- things we don't like about ourselves. I don't believe that these people w-would push you away.

It... could be true of any of us. We don't know what that year holds. B-but... we're all still planning to face it together. Don't... d-don't lose hope. Wh-whatever it is... I won't hold it against you.

[cyan_maid]

[She wants to argue against this. Wants to make a point that no, if it was this, no one would want to associate with her - and for good fucking reason. But that would make what Jane said to Touko yesterday invalid, when it was still very much valid. Syo's actions may be done with Touko's body, but Touko is not the one carrying them out - determining that would not be just.]

...

[She can't say who's hurting her to look at out loud. But she...needs to share a little bit with Touko.]

...Do you...want to know why I was so insistent that, you know...what Syo does shouldn't be held against you? It's...it's because, well, I can...relate. Not to the extent you've experienced, but...I've been through something similar.

[induality]

Wha--

[That catches her off guard. She's lived with this for years and yet she's never found another person with whom she could relate, even in the smallest way. What was inside of her could only be some terrible thing that she was now forced to live with. To have someone like Jane say she shouldn't be held accountable-- that she understood it to an extent-- was new and crazy to Fukawa. For a moment she stands there with her mouth hanging open.]

...for as long as I've lived, I've never had anyone to share this feeling with. That f-frustration and fear... I know what you're feeling. I-If there's anyone who won't judge you... it's me.

[cyan_maid]

Well - maybe it's me overprojecting. If it sounds like it is, you can be mad at me for that, but...I can't help but feel like it's similar.

[She lowers her voice a bit, in case they have eavesdroppers - Jane is still very, very guarded with the things she's been through.]

When I was back home, before...pretty much almost until immediately waking up here, I was...my whole body and mind was taken over by a woman called the Condesce. [Dislikes: The Condesce] And it was...it hurt so much, that initial...brain-jacking? I guess you could call it that...and then, she made me do her bidding, and I couldn't fight it. I couldn't even struggle to fight it, I was just...her puppet, with everything awful about me dialed up to eleven. I couldn't stop myself from doing and saying the most terrible things, and...I paid the price for it.

[She pauses to let out a harsh, shuddering breath.]

You'd think that because I couldn't stop it from happening, I might not be accountable, but I was held to it. Because I didn't have the strength to fight her, I was guilty. And - and that's not just. That's not even fair. That's bullshit.

[induality]

...so that's why you were so anxious about those things.

[Fukawa could you maybe learn the term juggalos? Well-- she remembers the important facts at least. They answer to this Condesce, someone who apparently is capable a hijacking another person's brain and turning them into the worst version of themselves, magnified by two or three times.]

I-it's really not that different. If you asked me, I would tell you that Syo is... truly the worst parts of myself. The th-things I wish I could erase. Y-yet if you asked her sh-she'd probably say the same thing about me. It feels like in every way, we can't possibly agree on what kind of person we are. So... by separating us it's possible that what traits we cling to are magnified in the absence of the ones we discard.

[She's never really analyzed it in great depth before. She's never had a reason to-- and certainly never anyone to share it with.]

Even though I've learned to fight her I can't get rid of her. Th-the same way she can't get rid of me. I may have learned to control when she shows up to an extent-- but once it happens there's nothing I can do.

[It's such a horrible, powerless feeling.]

...what happened to you-- that's not fair. Y-you're right. Th-that's... just people looking for someone they can blame.

[cyan_maid]

Y-Yeah. I. Everything...my whole mind just went red at the sight of them, and I panicked.

[She screamed like the girl in the old King Kong movie and had to be physically carried out of there. It's embarassing.]

I thought - if they're hers, she'll pop up again and take me, and then...who knew what would happen to everyone else? I-I couldn't let that happen again while I still had my wits. Even though we're all still mostly strangers to each other, nobody should have to be on that other end of a trident.

[But she pauses, now, and listens to Touko - really listens. And she knows the other girl's situation is worse than hers. Syo very well would be part of her for life. She almost opens her mouth to protest that it wasn't people who brought down the hammer on her, but...there are still some things Jane needs to keep to her chest, and the mechanics of her death is a topic that's of a high priority.]

So long as she's really not here - so long as she doesn't have the means to tap into my head, she can't take me. But I...I'll see if I can help if Miss Syo pops up again. Okay?

[induality]

If... if she is here, th-then we'll think of something. Whoever dragged us all here is going to be a problem, regardless of who they really are. Th-they've gone to a lot of trouble to put this together a-and we're not just a group of people they targeted but a group of i-individuals th-they choose.

Should a situation like that come up... we'll find a way to stop you. If that's what you really want, then I-I'll do whatever I have to.

[She hates Syo-- hates her with every ounce of her that belongs to "her". But she's strong. She could fight. If it was Syo, she might be able to take anyone on fairly. With her, maybe she could find a way to help Jane fight back, or at least guarantee she doesn't have to bear the guilt alone. Whatever Jane's wishes on the matter were... she'd respect them and do what she could.]

As for Genocider Syo... Y-you shouldn't have to worry about her too much. It used to be... e-every time my consciousness wavered-- wh-whether it was a sneeze o-or fainting at the sight of blood... that's when she'd take over. But knowing that I-I could learn to control her. I got over my fear of blood and now... now I'm the one who chooses when I need her.

...for the most part. I-I wasn't prepared for the fact that the thing they put on us would electrocute us if we messed with it.

But... if she becomes a problem, if you get Master-- he can calm her down. Sh-she seems to be fond of Church too, but I wouldn't... ask him to deal with that.

[cyan_maid]

No, please - please don't...fight me. I'd prefer if you all did whatever you could to stay away if it happened.

[She doesn't want to kill indiscriminately anymore.]

B-But that's only if it happens! It...it might not. I questioned Mister Xander about whether or not he was working for her, and...despite the fact that he couldn't tell me much, I...I don't think he is. So - I'd feel bad if everyone got all worked up over that awful witch for nothing.

[She listens to these Syo tactics. Yeah no, leave poor Church out of it. As for Togami...well, it's his burden to bear the whims of a serial killer hunting for his affections. Jane can deal with that.]

I'll remember that. Thank you.

[induality]

I-I'm... used to fighting for my life. B-besides... it would only be i-in the worst case scenario, s-so the others could get away.

[She can't promise too much, but she would do that... if it meant giving the others time. That-- didn't only pertain to this, but to anything. If there ever came a time when she could do something to give them a lead or time to escape.... she'd do it.

In her heart that is oddly distinct.]

But... good. Considering what we're dealing with... i-it's better to be prepared for anything.

[cyan_maid]

...Only if it absolutely comes down to that. But I'm serious, if she's...if anything is her doing, everyone else needs to get as far away as possible. She's ruthless and cruel, and nothing escapes her wrath.

[She doesn't want to end up killing anyone here! Really!!]