[He glanced off to the side, an obvious argument dying in his throat as he fidgeted mindlessly with the orange scarf around his collar. There had been people who stood with him as his body began to deteriorate and warp into something terrible, and what had happened when he gave out and broke?]
[What had trust gotten him, two thousand years ago? What did it mean when he couldn't trust the gods he'd sworn his service to, or the twin brother he must have cared for once, or even the Shield who guarded his life right up until he didn't?]
I'm...trying, I think. Whether it's an attempt I'm consciously aware of or not, but it-... [Another deep breath, another hand pushing violet hair from his face.]
...This is all wrong. In these memories we all relied on each other, kept barely any secrets and were able to keep ourselves together even when one of us turned on the rest. But it's all a jumbled mess made so difficult now--Church and I can barely hold a conversation without having a nervous breakdown, and without-....without Yuuri we're all an unmitigated disaster.
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[He glanced off to the side, an obvious argument dying in his throat as he fidgeted mindlessly with the orange scarf around his collar. There had been people who stood with him as his body began to deteriorate and warp into something terrible, and what had happened when he gave out and broke?]
[What had trust gotten him, two thousand years ago? What did it mean when he couldn't trust the gods he'd sworn his service to, or the twin brother he must have cared for once, or even the Shield who guarded his life right up until he didn't?]
I'm...trying, I think. Whether it's an attempt I'm consciously aware of or not, but it-... [Another deep breath, another hand pushing violet hair from his face.]
...This is all wrong. In these memories we all relied on each other, kept barely any secrets and were able to keep ourselves together even when one of us turned on the rest. But it's all a jumbled mess made so difficult now--Church and I can barely hold a conversation without having a nervous breakdown, and without-....without Yuuri we're all an unmitigated disaster.