cyan_maid: (Overwhelmed by sadness)
Jane Crocker ([personal profile] cyan_maid) wrote in [community profile] theairlock 2018-02-15 03:01 am (UTC)

Well - maybe it's me overprojecting. If it sounds like it is, you can be mad at me for that, but...I can't help but feel like it's similar.

[She lowers her voice a bit, in case they have eavesdroppers - Jane is still very, very guarded with the things she's been through.]

When I was back home, before...pretty much almost until immediately waking up here, I was...my whole body and mind was taken over by a woman called the Condesce. [Dislikes: The Condesce] And it was...it hurt so much, that initial...brain-jacking? I guess you could call it that...and then, she made me do her bidding, and I couldn't fight it. I couldn't even struggle to fight it, I was just...her puppet, with everything awful about me dialed up to eleven. I couldn't stop myself from doing and saying the most terrible things, and...I paid the price for it.

[She pauses to let out a harsh, shuddering breath.]

You'd think that because I couldn't stop it from happening, I might not be accountable, but I was held to it. Because I didn't have the strength to fight her, I was guilty. And - and that's not just. That's not even fair. That's bullshit.

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