[That is a laugh that is both tired and slightly unstable, because wow that hit the nail right on.]
So I'm told.
Literally--it's literally all second hand. Third hand, actually. [Because Epsilon knew and that went off on Wash and then got told to him.] But uh I'm not a ghost, just an AI. So's Tex. So was Tex. And I removed my own memories to survive the fact that-- [They tortured it.]
Jesus, it's a long story. I'm full of holes because I apparently ripped myself apart because I needed to for experiments and no moral code and I forgot and then it went to hell and I got moved around and then I got to Blood Gulch and then I had actual memories and everything that's happened is kind of my fault and I got told everything and I didn't believe it but I had to go along with anyway so now I'm dead and I can't take anyone home since I'm fucking dead.
[He can take a breath now. He can, but it feels like his chest is too tight to make room for air.]
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So I'm told.
Literally--it's literally all second hand. Third hand, actually. [Because Epsilon knew and that went off on Wash and then got told to him.] But uh I'm not a ghost, just an AI. So's Tex. So was Tex. And I removed my own memories to survive the fact that-- [They tortured it.]
Jesus, it's a long story. I'm full of holes because I apparently ripped myself apart because I needed to for experiments and no moral code and I forgot and then it went to hell and I got moved around and then I got to Blood Gulch and then I had actual memories and everything that's happened is kind of my fault and I got told everything and I didn't believe it but I had to go along with anyway so now I'm dead and I can't take anyone home since I'm fucking dead.
[He can take a breath now. He can, but it feels like his chest is too tight to make room for air.]