[Hnnnnngh talking about things is such a foreign concept to the Reds and Blues who are a bunch of dudes that don't do feelings. Feelings are for girls! They are the enemy.]
I've been trying to keep it together and not start screaming and yelling every time some fucking bullshit happens, in trials especially. Cuz nobody needs that. It doesn't help. Ardyn asked me to. And then the whole last week happened, and I've been trying--I lead my team, yeah, but this is a whole different ballgame. Running the fuck around, trying to make sure everyone's okay and not like killing themselves accidentally on powers. You know how weird it was to see Ardyn emoting that hard? And eating? And sleeping? I didn't know it could be that weird to see someone sleep like they're supposed to. I think I--I guess I--I was just dreading when it switched back. I know it's still him either way, just...he was...
And you at least seemed to have it mostly under control, but that still must have massively sucked in hindsight, and everyone was just trying to stay alive and I don't even have anything, Heart got my powers, and so I don't even get to--i-it wasn't bad for me, just...exhausting.
[This just scratches the surface, and he already feels awkward saying this much, and normally he doesn't care if he rambles because he talks, it's a thing he does. But Church picks at a hem on his dumb outfit and stays quiet for a little while.
It's already quiet here, and even he can tell it's not super kosher to raise his voice here. But he gets quieter.]
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[Hnnnnngh talking about things is such a foreign concept to the Reds and Blues who are a bunch of dudes that don't do feelings. Feelings are for girls! They are the enemy.]
I've been trying to keep it together and not start screaming and yelling every time some fucking bullshit happens, in trials especially. Cuz nobody needs that. It doesn't help. Ardyn asked me to. And then the whole last week happened, and I've been trying--I lead my team, yeah, but this is a whole different ballgame. Running the fuck around, trying to make sure everyone's okay and not like killing themselves accidentally on powers. You know how weird it was to see Ardyn emoting that hard? And eating? And sleeping? I didn't know it could be that weird to see someone sleep like they're supposed to. I think I--I guess I--I was just dreading when it switched back. I know it's still him either way, just...he was...
And you at least seemed to have it mostly under control, but that still must have massively sucked in hindsight, and everyone was just trying to stay alive and I don't even have anything, Heart got my powers, and so I don't even get to--i-it wasn't bad for me, just...exhausting.
[This just scratches the surface, and he already feels awkward saying this much, and normally he doesn't care if he rambles because he talks, it's a thing he does. But Church picks at a hem on his dumb outfit and stays quiet for a little while.
It's already quiet here, and even he can tell it's not super kosher to raise his voice here. But he gets quieter.]
Were you actually dead?