[ He considers this. He's trying to raise Fred right, but... he's not sure, right now. Is he really the person Nishitani deserves? ]
... The teenager I'm taking care of--he was kind of shoved into my lap when my friend Greg died. He led our people before I ever did. I only really became leader because there wasn't anyone else to step up. He passed that mantle on to me. That man knew what he was doing... I sort of never did, really. It's why I drank so heavily for so long. I didn't want to deal with being in that position.
[ A beat. ]
People keep telling me I'm brave, or something, but it was necessity. I've had a lot of weird reactions to how things simply... are, where I'm from. Queenie hugged me.
[ A small smile at the thought of that; she's sweet. ]
What I don't understand is why people think my life is so tragic. It's not. It's just... life. Life's unfair. But I don't want you to be under the illusion I'm someone who knows what he's doing, or anything like that. To be honest, I don't. I'm just doing what I think is right.
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... The teenager I'm taking care of--he was kind of shoved into my lap when my friend Greg died. He led our people before I ever did. I only really became leader because there wasn't anyone else to step up. He passed that mantle on to me. That man knew what he was doing... I sort of never did, really. It's why I drank so heavily for so long. I didn't want to deal with being in that position.
[ A beat. ]
People keep telling me I'm brave, or something, but it was necessity. I've had a lot of weird reactions to how things simply... are, where I'm from. Queenie hugged me.
[ A small smile at the thought of that; she's sweet. ]
What I don't understand is why people think my life is so tragic. It's not. It's just... life. Life's unfair. But I don't want you to be under the illusion I'm someone who knows what he's doing, or anything like that. To be honest, I don't. I'm just doing what I think is right.