I don't know. It felt as though I was used to it at first, until I actually stopped to realize something was wrong. Then the anger started setting in, with Mai and a few times after that, and I--

['If I don't know what I am, how could you ever claim to know Ardyn Lucis Caelum even still exists?']

[Ardyn tried to repress a shudder with limited success, folding his arms.]

...I'm sorry. I mean that now more than I ever could as whatever I truly am. No one should have to carry this save for myself.