Week 7

[airlockedmods]

[Well that weekend sucked. The Champions are down a dad and a bean and shrinking their numbers smaller and smaller, less and less.

There's no sign of life in the spaceport aside from PAL's omnipresent voice and SIS, the helpful asSIStant who has some control over certain heres and theres in the spaceport. She (and PAL) are available at all times and can appear anywhere if called. There is, however, a new floor to explore. Just hop in the elevator and pchoo.]


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[induality]

[She told herself no more running. And now with this last set of memories... what she remembered in that game and what she'd known of her home when this one started lined up. It should be over, reasonably. But that's not something she can be happy about right now, considering-- No. For a while now she'd known in her heart something must have happened. Yet nothing she'd told herself prepared her for the set of memories she obtained.

"Yeah... How bout that? Leon Kuwata, the ultimate survivor. I kinda like the sound of that...""Yeah... How bout that? Leon Kuwata, the ultimate survivor. I kinda like the sound of that..."

Those words haunt her. He died-- died saving all of them. More than anyone he deserved to live. Blaze's mercy after she'd almost condemned them all only stung more bitterly.

That's not the only thing on her mind either, although it's certainly at the forefront. But there's also... Ardyn. And Soma.

Being remembered is probably the greatest compliment you can pay to the dead.

That... no longer feels appropriate. Nor enough. And it's certainly not all she has in mind. Just as he had-- more than remember, she knew they were waiting for them. To be saved. She never had the opportunity to tell Ardyn that she would-- but she hoped he knew all the same.

If I'm... him? Then does "Soma" even really exist? The person who made friends here, who hurt when others died? The one who promised to help you? What if he's just a... fading illusion? The sheepskin hiding the wolf?

The girl that knew him while he lived these past few weeks had hypocritically seen him for the terrifying monster she feared and little else. She had never gotten past her distrust and looked properly at the person trying to help her even as she shunned him. Here she was cruel and judgmental. But there... there, once upon a time she'd seen them as equals-- cared for him as much as she felt safe allowing herself.

She stays in room 1 a bit longer than usual. She... has a lot to think about. But after a while she goes to the resturaunt to feed herself-- and anyone else that might need it. But between making tea and breakfast she remembers... can practically hear the way Choromatsu had said 'now you're my hero' and chokes up a little bit, tears in her eyes. But she's... doing her best.

She'd promised. And Touko Lucis Caelum keeps her promises.

Eventually she even tries adventuring out. She wanders about the gates, visiting all of them, following names-- some famliar and others unheard of. Lunafreya... Prompto... Osomatsu and Karamatsu... Chloe... Jaime and Bolton... Byakuya's. That's perhaps the one she spends the most time at, but you can catch her at all of them-- reading and learning faces and titles. At Byakuya's though she touches the pin and makes a pained expression--]

...Champion Survivor...

[Hey actually fuck this.]

Gates

[cyan_maid]

[While you're checking out Togami's memorial, Touko, you'll notice Jane is here - she's lingering by Lightning's, but it seems like she's seen you, hand paused in writing in a sketchbook, quiet as she observes you, but...not moving to interrupt your thoughts. But she's here, if you...need to yell about something with someone impartial to it.]

[induality]

[She makes an ugly face of disgust and looks away. That's when she notices that Jane's here too.

These had to be all the people in her initial group. Thinking about that... this is probably really emotional for her too. Putting her hand down, she joins Jane.]

...hey. How... are you doing?

[God she's still not good at this but she wants to be better.]

[cyan_maid]

[It's alright. She doesn't have to be good at it.]

...Ah...well, not. Not super good, but I...I can't lock myself away. [Jane finds herself glancing back at Lightning.] Not...not after everything Light did for us. Not after everything she was.

[induality]

...yeah. I get that.

[She feels the same way about the people who helped get her here.]

Do... you want to talk about it? ...about her?

[Fukawa can't say she knows anything other than... she's really pretty.]

[cyan_maid]

...Do...you want to hear about her?

[Serah is the Lightning Farron Fan Club Founder, Xander is the Lightning Farron Fan Club President, so...Jane would be the Lightning Farron Fan Club Vice President, so, you'd be in for a lot of praise.]

[induality]

...yeah. Actually... I would.

[Anyone Jane thought highly of... was probably someone worth admiring. She couldn't say she wasn't curious anyway either.]

These are the people we're all fighting for after all.

[cyan_maid]

...Okay. Well, she was...very sure of herself. No matter her actions, Lightning always knew...yes, this was what she had to do. Serious and level-headed, and she tried hard to be more of a loner, but kind of ended up a leader with Xander. And - and she was good. She didn't take it easy on anyone, but she was always a good person. Willing to listen, and willing to help. Even if, um...her kind of help was more, here, you're sad, being sad isn't going to do anything, take it out by trying to fight me instead. [Jane snorts softly.] Which I did. And she kicked my butt. But after, I felt better. And...above all, she was dedicated to the people she loved. Her sister...and us.

[For a brief moment, Jane looks back at Lightning's portrait. It's been so long...and yet, she hasn't forgotten her face at all.]

She - she found someone murdering someone else. And...they were so upset over what they did, and so scared...that she killed them, so they wouldn't have to go out the airlock in an execution. Because she couldn't let Kurumi die that way after all the pain she'd been through already. And before we had to vote, Lightning gave me this...this silly toy knife. [Jane takes out the toy knife from her pocket, and shows Touko.] She said it was a copy of a real knife her sister gave her. And...I guess I held onto it, or the real version, for as long as I could. Just to have a piece of her with me.

[induality]

...even though she knew what would happen to her, she was willing to go that far...

[She can see why Jane thought so highly of her. If she was in that position-- hell. She wouldn't have known what to do. Honestly she probably would have been too scared to do anything.]

We... didn't really have anyone like that in Starfield. But... the kind of person she was... it kind of reminds me of someone. Well-- she probably wouldn't go so far, but... that kind of stern support and intelligence... I can think of someone like that. I probably... would have admired her if I knew her.

I'm glad you got to hold on to it, even if it isn't real. If she gave it to you then she probably thought really highly of you too.

[cyan_maid]

...I can only hope I can live up to whatever she saw in me. It's...hard, not knowing what she'd want me to do now. And before any of this, I never...I hadn't had someone like her to look up to.

resturant

[tokencanadian]

[Making sure everyone is feeding themselves is important, and she was coming into the kitchen to make something herself. That's when she spots Fukawa. She lingers by the entrance for a moment, raising a hand to wave-]

Good morning, Touk-

[But She spots it. The way Fukawa looks. Call it a strange sense.]

Touko?

[induality]

Good...

[Whooo boy. It's not easy. She tries to swallow it back, but in the end it's just more obvious. Still she tried-- even as she wavered a little when she spat out--]

M-m-morning...

[It's actually a terrible morning.]

J-jeeze I'm... a terrible liar...

[--although Starfield's crew especially probably all knew that loooong ago.]

[tokencanadian]

[It's incredibly obvious. And when you've spent more time than you know rooming with someone, you pick up on the ways they act. Including when they're trying to hide something.

And Fukawa is bad at hiding things.]

...It's true, I'm sorry. I don't think you could hide a lie from me, Touko.

[She walks over, gaze low, but still on her. She's this close to initiating hug mode.]

Is it about the new memories?